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You are My Imagination

June 18th, 2009

“You are My Imagination”, words were at tip of my tongue. Lips closed but repeating words again and again. I should get it right, was only the thought that was lingering in my mind. She was calm sitting at the car window. She was looking outside. Fresh air passed through her smooth skin, to her hairs. Which were flirting with her cheeks, as they were left open.

It was nice and cold morning. With slight drizzle early morning, air was filled the freshness. I looked at her through the side mirror of the car. She had her glass half rolled up. With few drops on window glass, she moved her finger over the rim of the glass, got all the droplets together on her fingertip, and then tossed them out of window. Driver stepped hard on the brakes, and looked in side mirror, there was no rain. She was still sitting there. Strands of hair were still playing. I just looked around. I realized, I was dreaming. I tossed away the idea of saying it her, “You are My Imagination” as the drop of rain.


   Early morning on way to the office, car was speeding on LBS road. Driver insisted on windows to be rolled up, as there was slight drizzle. With a sharp turn on the right, i saw her. Although windows glass was fogged, i could make her out clearly. She was standing there. She was wearing purple top, jeans skirt and a smile for me. Hair had gone wild, and wet as well. Driver slammed brakes again, and said, “Be quick!” I got down, and was looking at her, and said, “You go ahead, and we will take a Auto-Rickshaw”. He speeded away. 

I walked up to her. “Coffee!”,  she said as we walked in CCD (Cafe Coffee Day – coffee shop). We ordered coffee, as we settled. We talk regularly, over a cup of coffee. A lot and on various topics, including childhood dreams to plans for future, reality for today, and the last fun outing. Today was special. I was looking in her eyes, one she batted teasingly. She is out to say something special today. I had made up my mind to tell her. Tell her those words (You are My Imagination). With coffee being served, I was nodding, with no words reaching to my brain. My inner voice whispered, “You are My Imagination“. I tried to cover it up by sipping up coffee, and it choked. I suppressed it and started listening back to what she was saying. Hot coffee had burnt my throat. I opened my eyes. She was still right in front of me talking to me. I thought of ordering the check (bill), only to realize that we were in my company’s cafeteria. I sat firm on chair, remembering, all my failed attempts to take her for coffee @ coffee shop and listening to her. I gulped the idea of saying it to her as a sip of coffee.


     

It was a long day of trekking. The temperature got lower to 4o C. I had geared up to tackle it. With fleece jacket and thermals. Temperature was not an issue. We had just finished a steep climb of 250 feet’s. Heartbeat’s had gone twice. Just to make our breath comfortable, and not to loose concentration, we were talking to each other. A pack of 50 walked hand in hand roped to reach other. Looking from far above, it looked like a long snake, making his way up the slopes. With last step to the flat, grip on around my wrist tightened, as if she slipped. “That’s the reason I told you, Let me hold your hand”, said pulling her up. I pulled her to the flat, with all the strength in my shoulder. “I am holding your arm, that should be it”, she said dusting snow off. I told pointing at her bag, “Your bag is as heavy as much as you are. Please offload some of it to others before your dream comes true”. She dusted the ideas as she has done to snow. All of us knew, she always dreamt off, slipping off the slopes. For rest of the trek of 12 Kms., grip was firm. We had early dinner around, 7 PM. After dinner there was a campfire. Bournvita was served before heading for tents. As tradition we had to do bottoms up for Bournvita. Those who didn’t had to lick it the entire night. With sun going down, temperature dropped to -3o C.

We were in tents, in sleeping bags and laughing at the day’s sequence. We were tired, never knew when we will fall asleep. I had her by my side, always. With the last of light from campfire, her face was still beaming with beauty. Warmth of her face filled my heart. I could not take my eyes of her, even when I wanted to. Red scarf around her face added to her beauty. We had each other’s arm as pillows. It was last night of the trek. I said tomorrow with the stroke of light, i would say it to her, “You are my Imagination“. I kept repeating. I don’t recollect when I slept. “Good Morning!” she said bright light on her face. It was loud and clear. It was warm. Then coffee machine made the guzzling sound. She took my coffee mug out, replacing with her own. Handing mug over to me, and again she said “Good Morning!” She had a broad smile and same warmth in it. I felt the same warmth of her face in her wish. I wanted to say it to her, “You are my Imagination”, but all I managed to be returning her pleasantries. “Good Morning!” I said walking to my desk.


     

With these i realized, there are various moments, that you live, enjoy. Many of them you dream off. But somewhere whatever you imagine, there is inspiration. Here i am pointing out the incidences, where i have imagined, and made an attempt to say it all, all who have tickled my imagination. “You drive my imagination”, in fact a step up would be “You are My Imagination“.

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Cigarette in my Hand I feel Like a Man

December 15th, 2008

I feel like a Man (associated press Italia)

I feel like a Man (associated press Italia)

It was a Friday evening; I was sitting at window of my Companys drop. All of a sudden I started to have passive smoking. I realized were stuck in traffic. Just next traffic there was a Tin shack. Shack was supplier for Hot Wada Pav to all Smoking engines. I later on realized he even fueled those engines. You name a brand and 100 Rs., you will get a pack of cigarettes from the Gap between tin sheets.

A beautiful girl, was walking along with her to colleagues in-group of four to get have a bite of Wada Pav. She was so attractive with her dressing, all heads turned on her instantly. She ordered “Char Wadapav aur Do Dum, Do Garam, Ek Wills pack.” Well “Dum” is most commonly used synonym for cigarette. At first thought it was her treat to group. Of all things she ordered, I was sure her share was only with Wada Pav. As order was served, first came out a pack of Cigarettes. Followed by custom orders of Cigarettes, and last to be served were Wadapav.

As the cigarettes came out there was no much delay, each engine in group had their own popped in their lips. With a single stroke of a matchstick all 4 Cigarettes were blazing. “Yes, 4 in all”. Pretty girl you ordered was first to take a puff, even before others could get their cigarette lighted. With ever bite of a WadaPav, there were 2 puffs. Ratio continued in equals for all.

Mean while they noticed new and fancy slipper she wore. Without a delay a game of feet stamping started. They occupied all over footpath and having a good time and stamping her feet. She was more stubborn then guys even thought off. She said, “Rukh Abhi, tere joothe agar masalke nahi rakhe toh dekh?” (Which means, just wait and way I smash your shoes). With short sprints and dodging they started enjoying play. We all started looking at the fun play.

She tripped one of them, and danced all over his feet’s. She said in anguish,”Tum logo kitne baar bola hai Cigarette peete waqt masti math karna”. With the end of dialogue she had a large puff. I thought she wanted to burn her lungs with all the smoke she could inhale. She blew it on face of one she tripped. It was her last puff, and she was out of cigarette. she gave hand to her friend, “Phir mazaak nahi karna”. She asked him to step on her feet’s and carried him on her own feets for few yards. It was way elders carry small kids on their feet’s. Turn but turn in pairs they walked in the same manner till office. Back to where they came from.

I was still in back for drama, where she in anguish said that dialogue. Just then a friend commented, “A cigarette in my hand I feel like a Man”. That is what should have made her take her first puff, and then cigarette took her on. I had been a passive smoker most of time, as its an unavoidable situation. But that smoke has nothing to do affect flowing of Male hormones or manly feeling, instead I get a Cough!. A feeling of illness. It left several questions in my mind.

How does such a beautiful girl fall for such a bad thing?

Cigarette’s are taken in form of stress relievers, Do they actually do?
What has caused stress?

Girl having cigarette, Does it gives her sense of Freedom? If yes, what freedom? How?

We live in a liberal country, where females are given equal status and opportunity.

Does smoking with guys, and saying “A cigarette in my hand, I feel like a Man”, Means being equal.

There was a jerk and we were off on road, with traffic cleared. This thoughts had created traffic Jam in my mind. Without making attempt to find and answer to all that thought I closed it.

But Question remains!!

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Aaaphhh..

November 18th, 2008

Aaaphhh..

Aaaphhh..

Aaaphhh.. was word that pierced my ear. I was listening to this nice song of Enrique Iglesias, ” Can you feel the rhythm” One of my favorite on way back home. But this soft word with most calmest voice, managed to make it way to my drums. I took of ear-plugs instantly and started looking around.

I noticed 3 men with a baby standing right next to me. She should have been a year plus, but to tell you she had outgrown her age in terms of expression. her face was very expressive. She was on arms of one person and guarded by other 2. Although it was Saturday evening local train was still crowded. All 3 men looked in their early 30s. Looking at 3 couldn’t guess who was father of this baby, but definitely looking at her, could guess her mother atleast would be charming and good looking.

Shhh.. was her next word, with an expression, and fingers over lips. A typical way any mother ask kid to be. With end of word, person holding her in arm said, its time for A B C D.. At the Knock the 3 rd person who seemed to be totally untouched till now started stating

A for “Apple” 
B for “Bharti” (I guess its her name)
C for “Cat” 
..
there was an interruption, saying no “Dusarawala”, and then the same voice started
A for “apple”
B for “bada apple”
C for “chota apple”
D for “duhplicate apple” <first time the soft voice had toddlers voice in it>
E for “eating apple”
… and so on she went

with each answer she had a naughtily smile, which meant she knows she was making fun of “A B C D”. This also made me understand, Why kids hate apple?. Every time they start learning the start with apple.

The smile, she had, relieved the entire day frustration i had. It was consecutive 4th week after diwali i was working and long hours as well. There was no count of saturday-sunday as they were also weekdays for me. Saturday evening passing by, i was pressing against time to make it up for last show for day of Dostana. With things not working frustration mounted. I often used to fins as Music as a remedy to a frustrated hour or at times. Soothing music help you relax.

But saturday was special, I had boareded train in Vikhroli and on my way to Dombivli. I thought good 30 minutes of nice music would help me relax. It will also help me regain my mood for movie. But when i saw her smile, my mind felt more relaxed. With a person in between we were trying to play hide and seek. Was fun the small act of 5 minutes made me feel more relax than, regular listening of music. Frustration all gone. Charged up, felt like it was just a start of day. Energy level again had a steep rise.

At very same moment i recalled scene from Salam-namaste movie. The scene is where his co-worker explains him “Wonders of smile of a Kid”. There are many adverts made on same theme. Most recent where the bride is leaving her parents, to be with her in laws. And a very serious scene is, converted in to a complete laughter because of a toddlers smile.  Time flew by and train apporached dombivali station, i never knew, when and on which railway platform i had dumped my frustration. But now i was all charged by, and after a long time i could give smiling good bye to stranger.

Tah tah.., c u were her last words before left the train.

Its truly said, when a kid smiles, god showers its blessing!

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Its 26!

October 6th, 2008

Yes,

It’s number 26 for me.

For all those dirty minds, I haven’t dumped my 26 GFs or 26 puffs.

It’s Birth day number 26.

With a hangover of Minisha from the movie Kidnap, which I “carry-forwarded” from the night, my day began. Calls and orkut scraps were coming throughout the day. Some SMSed, while few called up.

However the call that I most expected did not come. I thought this would be it. I would at least get a call. As the day passed by, dozens of times my phone rang. I picked up & answered. It was a day where one would not like to miss a single call but I was ready to miss all for one, the one.

But as luck would have it, it didn’t happen. The day was coming to a close with it being nothing more than a regular working day. As I was about to be in bed, a thought passed by,

How can someone make my day happening when I was trying to be out of reach of every one? Do you need someone to make your day special?

Well the practical answer was NO. Friends came, wished and went. Relatives came, wished and went. I had made sure I got blessing from parents at the dawn of the day. I was following checklist for the day, like any other day – it had one item as usual pending. I put it back to next day’s list and went to bed.

The mobile Rang, I got up in a flash and took phone and raced to balcony to attend call. The voice was soft gentle. It had a shiver. There was lot of noise around of Navratri festival around. Normally I would have asked to hung up or call back or something, But I wanted to talk. It was raining heavily since evening.

The evening could have not gotten any more romantic that this. The wait was over – two of my best friends committed themselves to each other for the rest of their lives.

My half heart was full of Joy, I was about to jump in joy, then I realized I was in balcony. The voice continued, the moment was great, they missed me.

I missed you sunny, I missed you a lot!

These were the words that made me realize that I had lost everything. Whom to blame for this loss? Why to blame? My friends for long have changed the definition of their relationship with each other.

It’s a hard feeling, when a loved one says, “You know, your friend, please try and avoid being a friend anymore!!”

And it happens again! Again and again!

Again, it’s number 26 for me….

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