Sushant Chaudhary’s World

I have finished reading Sidney Sheldon’s “Tell me Your Dreams” novel. Novel was published in the year 1998. I am a late starter, on this it has been more than 10 years. I was recommended this novel by my colleague, when she found me reading Sidney Sheldon’s another work, “The Other Side of Midnight”. With the first book itself I had interest in reading all the novels of him. And I started reading them one by one. This is third book of his which I finished.

I started reading this some where in the middle of a week. Week was full of activities and lots of commitments. First day I started reading it on my way home, and sooner I found myself continuing it till midnight before I actually dozed off while reading the book. With each passing chapter in the book, I was fully into it. I was not willing to do anything but just read the book, and find out what happens to Ashley Patterson’s life. Sidney’s writing had the immense power to keep me involved till very last page of the book.

All the above is just a praise of book, let me come back to the point, ever since he has started reading this book, he has started paying attention to me. He calmly listens to every word that I say. Every act I want to do, and cause behind it. He says, “I listen to my heart”. ”Bakwasss”, he just listens to me. Haven’t you all noticed a change in him?

The book gives a light on MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). MPD is still, a controversial topic among the world’s psychiatrists. Staying in the mega-polis, I have seen people acting weird at times. And as always I pass by with the comment, “he has lost his senses”. After reading this book, it made me feel the pain that one goes through. It gave me feeling of a Caccon (shell) that one develops to protect himself.

Now he got to the point, you see there is pain in each ones life so is in his life. You see the smile on his face, it carries a mask. A mask of which he himself is afraid to take off and face it. Last night I remember he was dreaming of having made the greatest decision of life. When I asked him “Tell Me Your Dream”, he just said, it’s not going to happen. If I let you know it will never happen. It has been so till date. I remember him. He has never finished any good thing he has thought off and told me.

Sidney’s unique way of writing the dark side of oneself has really inspired me to write this post. I think book has made a mark. This is one of those that I will remember for really long time.

See he still didn’t say it, he will remember this book for long time only because, it help him know me (sunny) better. Now that he knows all those inner voices, his gut feelings, his heart felt decisions are mine, he has stopped thinking. He has not even asked me to write this post and introduce me to you all. It’s nice to meet you all. Ah! Before he steals away credit all those beautiful blog posts he has written till date are dreamt by me.

Do write back and let me know, who do you “Tell your dreams”.

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26 December 2008, a month to our Republic Day number 60th. Rajpath was on its way of make over. Work was in progress for most prestigious “RD Parade” (Republic Day Parade).

Over the years, right from childhood, i have seen people from forces, personnel etc. marching on this road, with a great pride and honor. Its a mark of respect to nation, and individuals on dice.

Almost 10 years back, while under going training i was being asked to “Fall Out” and go and join separate division. A group of individual who were to be observed and trained. These cadets were to represent our training institute (para-military category) at “RD parade”.

With news coming to us, entire pack was happy. We were rehearsing 12 hours a week. We had already made our rhythm of march as heart beat. It was as if, we missed a step in a march we missed our heart beat.  Each one was confident to make it. We had done a similar exercise before in honor of then Admiral Vishnu Bhagwat. Hence our confidence was high. Each one had a dream to kiss that road, that has seen so many march.

But dreams are dreams. One Sunday all confident guys were made to “Fall Out”. We were happy and thought we made it. That joy short lived on our faces. We were given a letter to be signed by parents and our respective school authorities/registrar. The letter said “NOC” (No Objection Certificate). When showed to parents, i realized, i was having a trouble in my hand in form of declaration. NOC was meant to have a declaration that there was no impact on my schooling and personal activities by a week long trip to “Rajdhani” (Delhi- capital) on account of “RD parade”.

It meant trouble to parents, they were happy with opportunity i had got. But they also wanted me to concentrate on  ”SSC” (Matriculation that year itself). Unfortunately, the schedule of “RD” was overlapping my preliminary examination for “SSC”. Parents said, “We let go if school approve to postpone your papers, or at least re-conduct it for you”. And that sentence meant clear “NO”. I had being skipping my classes to be a part of training group 40 miles away. I knew i was running short on attendance (75%).  School response was 2 lettered “No”. And i saw my dreams of making it happen shattered.

I really wanted to be part of it. Unfortunately, there were so many like in same pack. Some did overcome opportunity, with help of parents, and taking a year drop at school. Making my parents to take that decision was foolish thing to do. Eventually I was forced to retire from the training.

From that day, till today. I do keep remembering, how dangerous can be dreaming, when you don’t have situation in your hand. And you are not the decision maker.

Opportunity knocks, and you should grab it. It took exactly 10 years, a bit more. I was in Delhi, as a part of my tour to Northern India. With a first step on New Delhi station, recollected by dream. After checking in hotel, getting fresh, lunch and then i was already walking in direction of Rajpath.

After having fantastic ride of Delhi Metro, I was at central secretariat station. After coming out of station, I had Vijay Chowk on right and India Gate on my left, and me on Rajpath. It was foggy even in evening. India Gate was more than a mile walk. I walked the distance (Marched with heart beat) twice.

Saluted war soldiers of war!

Kissed Rajpath! and was on my way back to hotel.

Eyes were filled with spark of achievement, fulfillment.

I got my first dream fulfilled!

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     Was reading this splendid book “The Dark Before the Dawn”. Came across its one entry that said, “Meeting person of your Dreams”. Wow! was my inner voice. Finally this book is going help me for mission “Search of soul-mate”.

    After reading chapter ideas took totally new meaning. American approach towards relation was up in front of me. Views of Western-world about relationship shook some of my beliefs of being in relationship. Author has mentioned her experience’s in book. She gives amazing tip in topic “Meeting person of your Dreams”. Take my word, if you haven’t had worst in your relationship this might take you to it. I would leave it up-to you to read the book and find out. But yes, she says is to have list of person you want in your life. Show it to your to be, what you expect. Will leave you all with this thought for some lines.

In Eastern World, for which i have seen, being a relationship means lot. Things (world for individual) changes. Looking at a person behavioral change we can make out how is he/she is doing in their relationship. Actually person’s face becomes a report-card that shows how they have done in recent meetings. Just people who just don’t how to read a report-card, here are certain things that would help. Normal grades on report card are

Blush,
Smile,
Glow,
Shyness,
frown,
Completely Speechless,
Talkative and so on..

Each one of us is good at know this. Well in eastern world, preparation to meet <date> itself starts with, what will he/she like to see me wearing, and goes to minute details. 

    Me not sure which in better, Western or Eastern, but then is

• “Love is relationship of give and take”
• “Love is sacrifice”
• “Love is all you need”
• “Love fails, only when we fail to love”

    I tried both the ways to get into a relationship started. The experience in both the scenarios were more horrifying then soothing.

    One says “Love is Blind” and yes actually got blind to follow steps mentioned by Author. Believe me response i got was similar to One, Katrina (in Namaste London- BollyWood Flick) gave to the Boy (The analytical tech guy) her parents arranged for getting married. Added on, “Are you trying to write PRD (Project Requirement Document) or looking for life partner ?“. 

    Then i tried the more traditional way, he easterner type. The girl robbed me over 5-Grands in a year, in name of dates at Coffee shops, movies, dinner etc. The dates were good, Coffees were Hot, Movies were more cosy. But, unlike others i failed to read that Report-Card Face. I felt like Damn!! the charming girl (was still looking charming and pretty after robbed shows natural signs of inclination of love) could actually walk off like nothing happened. I actually tried reading this book “Women’s Realities, Women’s Choices -  By Hunter College Women’s Studies Collective” to analyze my case. And reached an ultimate conclusion, you can never change women mind, until she is willing to change herself. And there we move On…

This was my experience, Please give it a thought, and let me know to “Meeting person of your Dreams” which is better….

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